Lucid Nightmares

    As of this sem, I think I’ve been burned out. Somehow I don’t want to study anymore (although the org is another thing). I think I lost the drive. They say 3rd year really is a phase where you suddenly lose interest.

    I’m taking 21 units this sem (which is actually a lot for UP students), juggling my time between the org (where I’m an officer), academics, and my volunteer stint for the UP press.

    I’m burned out and I have this urge to flunk all my exams and papers then go on AWOL. Haha…Perhaps I’m in one of my depression phases.

    Last night I wanted to get drunk but I had to finish this article for Ma’am Chua’s class and so I still went out with friends but only drank one bottle of beer. We went home at around 11pm and I slept around 2am… I haven’t finished it yet… Perhaps if this goes well I’ll feel good enough to be in this course.

   

Almost finished with the 288-paged hardbound book  A World of Animals: The San Diego Zoo and The Wild Animal Park  and I couldn’t help but wish there was something like the San Diego Zoo here in the Philippines. I couldn’t help but compare the caged animals here with the diverse and rare breeding groups that are being taken

care of there.

SUMMER ENDING…
"sweet beginnings and bitter (erase erase erase) sweeter endings" - The Corrs, altered by Tine

So besides exhausting all the possible sources of reading at home, this summer I:

1.) went to Nueva Ecija
    - learned a little about agricultural life/ business in both the peasant and landowner point-of-view

2.) went out a couple of times with my highschool friends (to the
mall and at Alexis’ -although it’s not exactly his but his family’s-
private resort rented by Edree for her post-birthday celebration)
    - friendship still going strong and even stronger, searching for other options for another day’s hang out

3.) went out swimming with the Sahagun clan (claiming that all their -including me- family members are talented and beautiful)
 
- still not enough to give me proper tan lines…or is it the mistake
of buying a halter swimsuit, thus leaving no signs of unsun-kissed
lines at the back?

4.) had a blast with my support group (both ripada and veterans) may it be during community work or happy hours
 
- guys I really really enjoyed the summer because of our experience
(both in a profound and friendshipy way). ‘Hope we still see each other
this school year. Although I doubt we’ll still be able to go out as
usual. I’ll miss having lunch with you guys. Thanks for reintroducing
food into my life…thus the food-and-friends formula will work for me
from now on.

These are of course just the highlights. Entry
#4’s elaboration might actually consist of a novelleta. And there are
also other things that are worth mentioning but have now escaped my
mind. How ’bout you guys, had a fun summer?

Current music: Heart-shaped box by Nirvana and its revival by Evanescence

One of my favorite quotes: "In youth, we want to change the world. In old age, we want to change (the) youth" - Bob Brown 
It reminds me of some politicians. Can they have started just like us, idealistically cynical of our nation?